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Sunday, 28 December 2008

My Body Aches

Seriously it does. I also have a few itchy places that give me the urge to scratch thanks to a bunch of sand fleas. Accursed sand fleas.

While I do have the ability to ignore pain as easily as flipping a switch, to the extent that I surprised myself when I realized that it really was THAT easy, it doesn't help that doing so makes it easier for me to injure and add to the pain when i'm not trying to ignore the pain.

Why is my body wracked with so much pain? It's because I went to beach and walked six kilometers on sand from my grandpa's beach house to the end of the Tutong sand spit and back, wearing flip-flops accompanied by my cousin yesterday. I swear that the gap between my big toes and the ones next to them have gotten larger thanks to that experience. Seriously, never wear flip-flops on a long walk. Flip-flops are called "selipar jepun" in Brunei for those of you who are Bruneian and are not aware of what flip-flops are.

My main topic for today is that walk on the beach. A very painful and exhaustive walk across sand wearing flip-flops. On this walk, me and my cousin made some very interesting discoveries. People leave a hell lot of junk on the beach. And all kinds too. You might not believe this but I saw three different broken washing machines on the way to the end. Here's a list of the various other things we found:
  • 3 Varieties of florescent bulbs
  • A Broken Tv
  • Several Bottles of Vodka
  • A woman's handbag that my mom and aunt say would've cost hundreds when it was new despite the fact that my backpack which has a larger capacity cost me about B$30. (I don't think I'll ever understand why people have such a fascination with branded clothing. If two shirts look the same except for one having a name stitched into it that raises the price by a ridiculous amount, the smart choice would be not to waste money)
  • Several species of oyster mushrooms. First time I've seen them in white, purple, orange and brown.
  • A fish farm. Which we snuck into through a back entrance.
  • Rollerblades.
  • A spork the size of my hand. (Why would anyone ever want to throw this away?)
  • An actual original coke bottle.
  • A raft
  • A Ben 10 toy.
  • A gigantic tree root.
  • An unfinished house which looked impressive.
  • A Smoke Grenade
I am not making that last one up. We actually found a Smoke Grenade, vintage 05/06. what they were doing, I have no idea, but it's still a smoke grenade. Check it out right here along with a bunch of other pictures.

Smoke Grenade

Giant Root

Oyster Mushroom

A Raft

An unfinished house with a pool.
Fish Farm, no one was there at the time.

From 90% of the journey towards the end.

From 90% of the journey back. I can't even see where we started from from.

Tower at end of the sand spit.

Sand spits opposing each other, approximately half a km away.
At the Sand Spit's end, facing the river

The Sky, quite beautiful at that place

I also found a really walking stick to use which really helped a during the walk back. It also helped me learn a few tricks I can use while handling a scythe or a staff in a fight. I actually learnt how to use it to fling things on the ground wherever I want. Including some freshly cut leafy branches of a coconut tree. I flung something that's bigger than I am over my head more than 5 meters ahead of me. Some of the twigs and dead plants that I used to practice with actually broke up into smaller pieces because of how fast I was flinging them. You can see it in this picture of me posing at the edge with my back to the South China Sea.

To explain why my shirt and pants look strange in this pic I'll say that the wind was blowing from behind and I was carrying a grenade in my right pocket. And those aren't shoes I'm wearing, they're socks and flip-flops. I wore socks to stop sand fleas from attacking my feet again. If I wasn't wearing socks, I'm sure that the sides of my toes would have been rubbed raw from the flip-flops. Also for some reason, animals have been trying to make personal contact with me yesterday for some reason. Six different insects from the size of my thumb to the size of my middle finger crashed into me yesterday for some reason. That's not even counting the number of bloodsuckers(No twilight fans, not vampires, vampires don't exist, particularly ones that *LOL* sparkle) that saw me as a meal. Even a cat purred against my legs while I was heating some food at my grandpa's house. Heck, even my three month old cousin, laughed when I baby talked her even though she doesn't usually react that easily. I wonder for what reason that could be.

As you can probably tell from my remark on Twilight fans that I find the series to be an utterly unoriginal story that was most likely based on a twisted fantasy that the author had as teenage girl that I'm willing to bet that girls around here also seem to have considering the hype of this book. Basically, 90% of the Naruto fanfictions at I checked the problems with this series at Tv Tropes and found some very big flaws listed under the "Just Bugs Me" page of the series. It seems that judging a book by its a cover was more than enough for this book.

Finally, I got hold of the 2008 Dr. Who christmas special and overall, it was a decent episode but I would like to say that they did an excellent job with the CGI Cyber King. Very nice design and sequence. David Tennant is still going to be the Doctor seeing as David Morrisey wasn't really the next doctor so here's hoping that they find a really good successor. Not going to be easy though, that guy starred in more than half of the most popular Dr. Who episodes in the past few decades.

Favourite quote of the episode:
Hartigan: What do you make of me sir? An idiot?
Doctor: No. Question is, what do you make of me?

Wednesday, 24 December 2008

24th December, Another Day Before Another Holiday

Well my polls are over and I'm somewhat amused and slightly disappointed by the fact that only two people voted on each. Oh well. I am curious about what one of those two said they would destroy the world. I wonder if it's someone I know but everyone's entitled to their own opinions so I won't bother with that. I have to say one thing though, should anyone actually intend to carry that out, I will deal with them mercilessly. As much as I am meant to be an observer, it's not going to be fun for me if that happens.

I approve of the intention to improve technology, though if it's to destroy the world again be prepared to die. As idiotic as humans can be, I honestly hope no one is that big of an idiot. Seriously, what's the point in doing so? Any TV show that has the villain doing that for the sake of destroying the world is asking to be cancelled. Can't say much about whoever put up that they wanted watch over the world, but my guess they're probably after a sense of achievement or want to be remembered in history.

Now, onto the other poll. Whoever thinks that I'd establish worldwide peace has to either be someone whose name I do not know of but know of me or an incredibly trusting person. I wouldn't bother with something as meaningless as that. War, famine and disease are a necessary part of the world's balance whether you'd like to admit it or not. Conflict is the very nature of survival. It's not in the best interest of the world if there's worldwide peace. Especially considering the current problems the world is facing, another population explosion is not going to help. But that doesn't mean I endorse war, I simply accepted the fact that it's unavoidable no matter how much we want to stop it.

Hmm... Messing with people... That is something I love doing but I have no intention of doing something that wide-scale. Besides if I did that as the ruler of the world, there's no way I'm going to get an honest opinion of how well it went.

I'm pretty sure I've told a few people this but I have no intention of ever ruling the world. Conquering sounds like a fun challenge but when it comes to ruling, that's not something I would ever want to do. Even though I could easily figure out solutions to problems the world faces, I'm quite sure people would start questioning my morals. I can see the most efficient ways to do things and they often disregard the values that people believe in. Ethics really do conflict with progress a lot.

I have no real wish to change the world. I'll always like it as it is because the world would be boring if I knew what was going to happen. Besides it's not my place to my place to judge others or tell them what's wrong and it's more interesting to see them work it out for themselves. So basically if I ever did conquer the world, I'd leave maintenence up to someone else and go off looking for something else to do though I'd probably set up countermeasures for myself just incase whoever that decides that I'm a potential threat.

I really do wonder a lot exactly what makes me think so differently from normal people. I grew up in a stable and peaceful enviornment, I've grown up without any particular mental or physical disorders. I've taken tests to see for myself and the condition that would've best explained why I'm the way I am wasn't anywhere close to being affected by it. Looking from an objective point of view, I certainly present many symptoms found in Asperger's Syndrome but that isn't the reason for my "self". My ability to interact with people and my view of the world are not exactly typical for both normal people or people with this condition soI don't fit into either category.

It's not like I am actively trying to be different from other people but it's just that I do whatever I feel like doing my approach will be different enough to draw attention. No matter how much I try to blend in with other people, it's quite clear that I am something quite different from a typical person. To begin with, there's no way a normal person would try to be normal, normal people would wish to be rich, famous, meaningful, happy and extraordinary. I don't really have a desire to be any of those things, when those things come to me, i'd simply use them to entertain myself and move onto something else once I'm done.

I've mentioned many times that I can be confident to the point of being cocky. Just to what extent am I confident. I'm pretty sure how I'm going to phrase it is going to be ridiculously audacious that some people may actually balk when they read it. Here it goes:

"To Me, To Do Something Is Not A Whether Or Not I Can, It's How Long It'll Take Me To Become Capable Of Doing it"

As delusional as that might sound to some of you, I believe that human beings are capable of anything they set their mind to. "Where there's a will, there's a way" as the saying goes and by that, if I want to get something done, it will get done one way or another. It's a shame that not many people believe in themselves enough to go for their dream. Although I have to admit there are things that are physically impossible for me to do. If I didn't, I'd definitely qualify for a mental disorder and I'm quite certain that I am sane.

I do have a theory that could explain why I am like this. The world is all about balance. If the scales tip too much to one side I, things won't turn out well. As such, I believe that there is a reason for everything. The phrase "With Great Power Comes Great Responsiblity" is a good way to phrase it. But for me, it's not something that noble. It's more of a transaction. Equivalent exchange. The reason I ended up this way was because I needed to be this way to do something. By that, I mean that I have something that I am fated to do in exchange for my stats. Kind of like a credit card, enjoy now and pay for it later.

In any case, I would like to take this opportunity to brag that my 00 Raiser set has arrived in my handler's hands and I will retireve it when I get a chance to do so. I want to build that thing so badly... To my knowledge, Bandai has never set up a light up gimmick in their gunpla so this is damn worth the two month wait.

I would also like to say that the doctor who episodes on BBCE this and last week were excellent! The Weeping Angels have to be the best monster concept I've heard of and the creepiest one to deal with. Imagine being in a situation where your life depends on not ever blinking and keeping your eyes on them. Loads of thumbs up to whoever came up with that. The current reincarnation of the master was just as brilliant. Someone with the personality of a bratty child being the Doctor's arch-nemesis, I'm really looking forward to next week's episode.

The 2008 christmas special will also be on in UK tomorrow where the next incarnation of the doctor is supposed to premier in. If that guy in the video really is the next doctor, I probably won't like him as much as Tennant's potrayal. My first impression of him is that he looks like one of those cheesy all american heroes from 90's movies. If he's really going to be that kind of character, viewership will probably drop until they get a better hook for the 5th season. On a side note, the doctor's going use a sword to fight against cyber-men so that's pretty damn cool.

Here's the sneak peek, enjoy:

Tagged... Again

Rif tagged me again. I assume these "me" questions are supposed to be for him.

1) Are you currently in a serious relationship?

- Nope. To clear this matter up with everyone at school, I am not interested in pursuing one and the female Kendo Club members should stop speculating about that.

2) What was your dream growing up?

- At first a detective, then a scientist and then finally a doctor. Gave up the first two because they have low probability of employment in Brunei.

3) What talent do you wish you had?

- Nothing really, I am satisfied with my known talents. I would love to have something fun like telekinesis though.

4) If I bought you a drink what would it be?

- A vanilla milkshake, those are good.

5) Favorite vegetable?

- Brocolli. Best way to eat them is boiled and with oyster sauce soup.

6) What was the last book you read?

- Book... Can't recall. Maybe a textbook to study for an exam but I barely recall reading for it at all. I'm sure I did but those memories are blurry.

7) What zodiac sign are you?

-A Virgo! The same as Mistah Bushido!

8) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.

- Hell no! What's the point of having them? They're vulnerabilities in every sense!

9) Worst Habit?

- Hm... Not exactly a habit as it's more of a reflex but I definitely know that normal people don't immediately think of how to defend against and attack potential threats in an instant. By that I mean something like a downscaled "Zero System" from Gundam W activating every time I see something sharp or meeting new people.

10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?

- Once I get my license I may.

11) What is your favourite sport?

- Nothing but I do enjoy playing them.

12) Do you have a Pessimistic or Optimistic attitude?

- The best thing to call me would be a hopeful realist, I understand things can get better but I also know they can get worse but I still prefer if things turned out fine.

13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?

- Start wagering how long they'll take to fix it.

14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?

- I've led quite a charmed life but right now I seem to have injured my leg in some way but trying to make sure I don't injure it further even though the pain barely registers is quite bothersome.

15) Tell me one weird fact about you.

- Just one? Ignoring pain is just like flipping a switch to me.

16) Do you have any pets?

- None but animals seem to be quite wary of me, especially birds. I wonder why? It's not like I'm emitting some sort of menacing aura.

17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?

- Invite you in and ask what's new.

18) What was your first impression of me?

- A kid who just kicked a plastic bottle in my head.

19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?

- Just how exactly are clowns either of those things?

20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?

- Red or Gold slitted eyes. Looks threatening and my range of vision would be improved.

21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?

- Crime. I's probably do all the elaborate planning but in the end we'd just wing it.

22) What colour eyes do you have?

- Brown. Surprisingly enough they look honest whenever I'm not planning something.

23) Ever been arrested?

- Nope. I have a knack at avoiding trouble.

24) Bottle or can soda?

- Bottle, easier to savour the flavour with them.

25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?

- Inspect the events that led me to have the money, store 8000 in a savings account, use 1000 to buy gundams models or a current gen console, set 500 for a debit card and use the remaining 500 to polay around with the stock market.

26) Favourite band to listen to when you're mad?

- None. I rarely get mad. When I do I deal with the problem and move on.

27) What's your favourite place to hang out at?

-My room when it's dark. It's quite tranquil in there in those conditions.

28) Do you believe in ghosts?

- Yes, I have recently come up with a theory proving them and am capable of sensing their location like a radar. They don't bother me though, they don't seem to find it worthwhile to bother me. I guess that means my RES stat is through the roof.

29) Favourite thing to do in your spare time?

- Translating manga. Oddly enough, much more relaxing for me than playing games.

30) Do you swear a lot?

- I don't go one day without saying "Damn!".

31) Biggest pet peeve?

- When morons don't appreciate the value of things enough to keep them from getting broken.

32) In one word, how would you describe yourself?

- Unique. Very few words can describe me so well.

33) Do you believe/appreciate romance?

- I believe it exists but I also believe that teenagers are hormone driven idiots that can't tell the difference between lust and love. I know a few people who are so obsessed with getting paired up with other people that I have experienced the urge to bang my had on a wall. There was one idiot that actually made me obey that urge.

34) Favourite and least favourite food?

- Pizza, I love it. Onions, I hate them.

35) Tag 5 people to do this.

Anyone who reads this, I don't want to bother with names.

Saturday, 6 December 2008

Weapon Mastery: C

As you can see I have added a music player up there that contain ten of currently favoured anime songs, go and give them a listen if you want to hear some really damn good songs. I never thought I'd see the day where someone would sing "Libera Me" From Hell as an acappella song but here it is. And they aren't half bad at it either.

The world really is filled with all sorts of people, isn't it. Anyways, it seems that there's more to what I said about me being naturally proficient with weapons. It's not just close range weapons and guns(I score a lot of head shots in time crisis and I once intentionally shot my cousin in his tailbone with an airgun on dare) but apparently I can add bows and arrows to that list too. I played around with a make shift bow and arrow set today and after the first few shots, I was able to hit two or three inches away from my intended target. Not bad for a guy who's never used one. Must have something to do with my high class intuition that allows me to score a basket backwards to the net.

I guess I can say the same for knife throwing(haven't practiced with real ones yet but plastic kunai are good too) as well since I do hit what I'm aiming at but I only shoot them knife-edge first half the time. I remember that I was the only one who could manage to get the boomerang khai brought a couple of years ago to fly back in a circle twice. Didn't catch it though, that thing was hard and big and crashed into the roof before it could hurt anyone.

I've also been able to use everyday objects as weapons. I once used a small rug to block a soccer ball flying my way. Why did I do that when I could have just stepped aside? 1. I had the rug in my hands. 2. I reacted instinctively to the ball and 3. It was a lot cooler than just side-stepping the ball. I have been known to use jump ropes as whips to atempt indiana jones-like whipping techniques but the best I can do with them is grab onto something. Then there are the times where some people got in the way of my card throwing and ended up with paper cuts. I'm good at playing and throwing them.

A tricky thing I want to try is using coins as bullets and my hand as the gun. In Mahou Sensei Negima, one characters shot coins at lethal speeds and with high damaging ability and I thought it looked interesting. If I do figure it out, it won't be the only thing I learnt from that manga. I've picked up certain movements in chinese boxing and an incomplete version of that instant movement trick. I say incomplete because I have trouble doing that consciously while standing still. It's easier while moving but for some reason, the best results i get with this is when I use it instinctively. I've recorded myself doing this and I can reach around 5m at most in a less than second. Main drawback is that I can only do three successive attempts at most and the distance covered decreases with each one. I've been doing this for 3 years now and I still haven't gotten that much closer to the level in the manga which I understand is physically impossible but humans are known to be capable of the most unbelieveable stunts.

Even though I though I am a supporter of the idea that everything's better with swords, I have to say that a normal length sword really doesn't suit me. I'm more comfortable with having both hands occupied or free and I feel like I'll leave big openings if I use two handed weapons. I'd have to say that I handle knives or shortswords better than I do with normal ones. There's a joke among the fans of Gundam 00 that Setsuna's uneconomical habit throwing of beam sabers is the real reason why the 00 has such few weapons. The range of normal sword really isn't suitable for close range combat either and I usually end up using weapons more fore defense rather than attacking. My way of fighting is to waste as little energy as possible while executing the most effective move in disabling them. In other words striking their critical points and scoring one hit K.O.'s.

I have this strange feeling that in a "fair" one on one fight agaisnt another person with roughly the same stats as mine, there's a good chance of me being unable to finish my opponent quickly. However, put me in a situation where anything goes even if it's against multiple enemies, then there is a very good chance that I'd come on top.

Why do I think that? For one thing, as strange as it sounds, I find things people find hard to do are easy for me while I easily make silly mistakes doing things for others find simple. Second is that despite me running out breath quickly, my endurance and insensitivity to pain make it seem like I always have plenty of HP to spare so I can simply shrug off any attack they send my way. Another thing is that I subconsciously limit the amount of effort I put into doing things so that I can perform things efficiently, as in low input gives reasonably high output, but when I suddenly feel the urge to ignore that demand for efficiency, my stats would increase as if I was in a berserk status. I've done this sometimes during sports when I feel competitive because I just didn't want to lose and my body ends up overheating for about several minutes after the game is finished making me wait a while until my body calms down.I am currently incapale of doing that without using an emotion to trigger that status. The biggest reason why I wouldn't lose in an "unfair" fight is because my tactics won't be limited in such a fight. I am capable of instantly thinking of the most effective and most brutal ways to take someone down if I see them as threat. The fact that I have the disadvantage would allow me to ignore the desire to show mercy and instead display ruthless tactics that would truly earn me the right to say I went berserk on them.

I don't think anyone has seen me really get angry in these past few years. The scariest angry people are the quiet ones. Incidences where I actually feel anger(at least not fury, I still feel the cold calm kind of anger though) is zero since 2005 mainly because I have the emotional stability of a flatliner. This means that even in a fight, i'd be able to think calmly, the state of nothingness or "mushin" as they say in kendo. I was quite amused when I realized that the mental state that most martial try to discipline themselves into attaining was something I could achieve simply by being myself. I do have to wonder wht they mean by the mind's eye though cause in fate/ stay night, the mind's eye is described as the ability to predict as many possible actions that can be taken and their outcomes in an instant, which i do passively as well. In any case, I'm not someone who should be underestimated during a real fight as anything goes, and if anything goes, the one who can see everything wins.

Friday, 5 December 2008

Rising Sun

I got tagged by Rif, I will go overboard with the tagging because of him.


I am the blade of my words
Chaos is my body and Mischief is my blood
I have pulled off a thousand tricks
Unknown to doubt, nor known to fear
Have withstood troubles to create many pranks
Yet those hands will never lose purpose
So as I play, Unlimited Tag Works!


1. Put Your itunes, windows media player etc on Shuffle

2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.


4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name

5. Tag at least 6 people.

6. Make up your own variation of this oath.

"I am the bone of my sword.
Steel is my body, and fire is my blood.
I have created over a thousand blades.
Unknown to death.
Nor known to life.
Have withstood pain to create many weapons.
Yet, those hands will never hold anything.
So as I pray, "Unlimited Blade Works."

Are you male or female ?

Squall(FFVIII players should understand)

Describe yourself!

Run Run Run(I'm decently fast but not the fastest)

What do people feel when they're around you ?

Mouichido Kimi ni Aitai(I would like to see you one more time, would that mean people would like to see me again?)

Describe your current relationship.

Haven Troopers(I'm invading people?)

Where would you like to be now ?

My Story(I'm already here)

How do you feel about love ?

Flicker(Not interested in it)

What's your life like ?

Relax Take it Easy(Oddly suitable)

What would you ask for if you had only one wish ?

Somewhere I Belong(Actually I'd wish for superpowers but this is good too)

Say something wise.

We'll be waiting for the night(Sounds wise, kind of)

If someone says " is this okay ? " you say,

Now or never(I'm not that hot-blooded as I am not Mistah Bushido!)

How would you describe yourself ?

Catch(I wonder in what way)

What do you like in a guy/girl ?

Vanilla Salt(A tsundere song, rather fitting as I and most otakus find that kind of personality entertaining)

How do you feel today ?

Sea Breeze(I do feel refreshed)

What is your life's purpose ?

Bokura no Aikotoba(Our password, maybe find the truth of the world?)

What is your motto ?

All I Need(Is my will and my self)

What do your friends think of you ?

Baked Words(I'm always careful with what I say)

What do you think of your parents ?

Bataille(Not much of a battle, we get along quite well)

What do you think about very often ?

Previous Notice(The oncoming signs of the future? Yeah, a lot)

What is 2 + 2 ?

Let's go cheerfully(Feels like avoiding the subject here)

What do you think of your best friend ?

Confrontation(He wouldn't be my best friend if we had that kind of stuff)

What do you think of the person you like ?

Tooi Yume(Distant Dream, something people would normally feel for their crushes not that I have one)

What is your life story ?

Kata(Speaking? I'm the quiet lone wolf type though)

What do you want to be when you grow up ?

Tristesse(Sadness, I'm not a sadist and can't feel guilty so there's no reason for me to want to grow up to be sad)

What do you think of when you see the person you like ?

L's Theme B(The music makes it sound like I have to take a challenge)

What will you dance to at your wedding ?

Wedding's March(Very appropriate coincidence here)

What will they play at your funeral ?

Go For It!(Is my laptop telling me to live on the edge recklessly or does it want me to die?)

What is your preference ?

Kiseki(Miracles, it'd probably take at least that level of an event for me to fall in love)

What is your hobby/interest ?

Toumei Ribbon(Transparent Ribbon, Maybe saying them as rare hobbies as I have never seen a transparent ribbon)

What is your biggest fear?

Bukan Superstar(Personally, I don't care for celebrities, they are very expendable)

What is your biggest secret?

Unfaithful(Maybe referring to the fact that my loyalty is based on situations?)

What do you think of your friends?

Invoke(I invoke their interesting qualities maybe?)

What will you post this as?

Rising Sun(Most of my songs are in Japanese but I posted this at night)

Wednesday, 3 December 2008

The Beginning of The End of 2008

For some reason I had an ominous feeling when I typed out the title. Hope it doesn't turn out to be anything serious. First of all, you should notice that I've been changing backgrounds each post. This one is a CG pic from Fate/ Stay Night. I intend to stick with this one for a while so just turn down the contrast if the green hurts your eyes. Speaking of which, I was able to finish off the Fate storyline in 30 hours and the Unlimited Blade Works storyline in 21 hours. I would love to see Shirou vs. Gilgamesh animated, it is epic.

As you can see, I recently took a personality test that Rif had up on his blog. The test states that my personality type is INTP. I would have to say that's right as I took another test months ago that told the same thing although that one didn't suggest "Assassin" as a suitable career for me like this one did. Look below to see what I mean.

The fact that I actually do have the skills and mentality to work as an assassin should make my friends worry even more about that possiblity. Melvin and Sherwin were the ones who pointed this out the most last year and I think they're quite relieved that they're more than 5000 km away from me. Come to think of it there were quite a few other people who said similar things. Well at the very least, people should be glad to know I'm not one to hold grudges and kill people just because they annoy me. If I was, I'd have to say my intimidation factor would shoot through the roof. Then again, the fact that no one that I'm aquainted with is able to understand how I think might have already induced a fear of the unknown in them.

There are a few traits in that list that I have to correct though, don't want anyone to get even more confused about me. I DO think I'm weird but I also think everyone else is irrational, I AM punctual(at least with appointments, deadlines are another story) and I DON'T support the legalisation of marijuana.

I'm not sure whether to correct the comprimising thing but I use compromises to get things I want while making others think that it really is one while it was actually one of my contigencies. I do act without much planning but before I do act, I always run through every possible outcome in my head and devise several contigencies so that I can use them if I need to without adhereing strictly to any plans.

Truthfully, it's not "Happy People" I dislike but rather "Dull People" which is made up of a good number of "Happy People". Whether you are a dull person or not is my criteria for hanging out with acquaintances. I shall now explain how my interactions with people will explain how I view you as. This is pretty much a walkthrough on my interactions with sentient entities.

"Interesting People" & "Friends & Family"
Obviously, I'd be talking to these people on a regular basis. About a few times a week at least during the school term. My level of trust and interest in them also depends on how candidly I talk to them although lately I've been getting tired of holding back my thoughts around others, I don't have the patience to act "polite" when I'm tired or bored. If you're one of these people, then I have no problem lending you stuff or money, no strings attached. I would never be hesitant to call these people with an abbreviation of their names. Those who I have given multiple nicknames to are set as interesting people.

"Minions&Playthings" & "Boredom Killers"
I usually talk to these people as much as I do with my friends. If you talk to me a lot but it seems like I keep you at arms length away, chances are that you are one of these. Most of my friends overlap with these groups of people but have a higher level of trust from me than those who don't. I also talk candidly to this group of people. A good indicator of being in this group is if I give you a nickname based on your personality like "Lolibear" or "Shota-con". Those of you who I have given nicknames like these shouldn't feel insulted. It's not that I look down on you, it's that I recognize your ability to stand out among everyone else or that I can never remember your name. For these people, I'm willing to lend them my stuff in return for favors or on a whim if I feel like it.

"Acquaintances" & "Professionals"
Basically, I'd talk to these people when I'm around and usually end up trading stories with each other. No nicknames for these people and I usually don't deal with them outside of work or classes. I rarely talk candidly with these people. By professionals, I mean people who are simply working with me, like teachers. It's not that I don't find them boring, It's just that I have this instinctive sense of duty in me to treat these people as professionally as possible while working with them. Outside of that time, I might get along with them on better terms.

"Dull People" & "Books"
To clarify, I mean people who are too easy to figure out when I say "Books". Now people who think they feel that I might consider as one of these have justified reasons for feeling insulted. Again, it's not that I look down on others, I may be cocky to the point of arrogance but that's based on my own ability and not how others perform. In fact grades, talent and athletics don't have a role in how interesting people seem to me. It's how they think and interact with their surroundings that I base my interest in them on. When I do end up talking to "Dull People", I will usually be able to carry out a conversation with them related to certain topics but I would myself unmotivated to talk to them about anything else. With "Books", it varies as they may have certain qualities about them that would give them a one-time interestability. "Books" are people who have limited themselves to be one of a million others by having the "core" of their existences to be centred around something simple. I never talk candidly in front of these people and what I would do for them is limited within the scope of my convinience.

To be honest, I have found far more "Books" than any other categories of people in my life so far. "Books" are the kind of people you would be able to tell what their reason for existing is, their "cores", simply by looking at their actions. The reason I label them as books is because these people are as easy to read as books are. The easiest kind of people I can read are those who ultimately wish for a peaceful and happy life. It is these easily satisfied people that I find absolutely no interest in. "Books" could have the best brains, the most awards, most achievements and healthiest bodies in the world and I still wouldn't be the least bit interested in getting to know them because I already know their goals. I know people who have the potential to be among the best that humanity has to offer but are satisfied with small expendable roles in society and they don't interest me in anyway. It shouldn't surprise me that these are also the easiest people to predict reactions for and hence are the easiest people for me to manipulate not that I need to as I usually only do this to avoid trouble. On another note, anyone who is a "Book" is someone that I can alter their "core" easily as I am very good at understanding the flaws in beliefs and actions of humans but doing that goes against my principles as an observer. This personal term of mine is called so because saying that I view these people on the same level as potatoes would imply that I am a cannibal, which I'm not, I can hardly stand people's various body odours.

It amuses me that school teacher is listed as a disfavoured carreer as well but that pretty much is based on how I view people which is pretty much the reason why I'm not a very sociable person. It really marks me as one of the odd ones in both sides of my family as quite a number of them are teachers. Stay at home parent is also on that list and my restlessness really shows when I say I want to work for the W.H.O. someday. Movie star is on that list too but I believe that I'm quite a good actor when I want to be. The ability to act is essential for pranks after all, but I do have to say that I wouldn't want to be a a movie star. Modern culture seems to have overglorified people with such talents far too much to the point that I am convinced that movie stars and music artists have replaced those wordship statues of the past. I really can't understand why people would be so... frantic about meeting someone famous.

Momento Mori - Latin phrase meaning "Remember that you will die" is quite appropriate here as that is the reason why I don't bother memorizing any of their names unless their work is exceptional. The fact is, celebrities are the most expendable kind of people out there. They will eventually get replaced by other things (I really mean objects, not just people) in the future when they lose attention. People die every single second and these people are all the same once they're dead, no potential whatsoever. It doesn't need to be said that if I needed to sacrifice someone so that I could save others, I'd sacrifice these types of people first. Even "Books" are more useful than they are.

I'll continue this another time.
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